walls and secrets and wolves.

the laughter will never be drowned out

when in one life there is laughter we know the other is full of tears

there is a war inside my heart

and it's on the upswing.

these bags around me, these clothes, these walls mean nothing, hold nothing

because they are only as beautiful as the one inside the space,

the wearer of dreams and hopes and smiles is the wearer of a secret

and i wear it well.

but who would envy such a thing

it's like saying "you're filthy beautiful".

filthy beautiful is what i am, tonight.

i knew of purity before the world blew it's overwhelming breath upon me

knocking me to the ground where i slipped into the world below,

and i fell but landed softly.

my first time visiting this place i was met by a white wolf.

he spoke silently of my strength

he ran gracefully beside me, he runs gracefully beside me.

the space around me is dark, but as i step forward light follows me as far as i decide to go.

always.

i know that when my heart stops beating, i'll rise.

when life disappears from my eyes, i'll be home. 

the same place i am when i love, is where i'll go.

i've lived there before, i know it well in all of it's elusiveness.

the very particles that make me human

start moving faster, slower, faster.

and it's there that i love, that i sing, i scream.

i have no interest in feeling more for i have known it all, inside my chest.

all that i need exists within me.

so as i run, i am really running in place.

as i look to see, i see merely a reflection.

i cannot be more or less than i am. i am all. we are all, there ever was or will be.

we are all the sun, the moon, the stars, the grass

because ultimately we are all made from the same particles,

from the same universe.

in knowing this, i see no reason that i cannot shine as brightly as the sun

grip and pull as tightly as the moon.

spirit take me in your arms tonight

show me how to fly again.

harmonize with me.

as the mist clears, i'll see your face again. it will be soon i am sure.

i long for the clarity in your eyes, the warmth of your skin.

look at all we've created, lost, and gained.

it's all there waiting for us.

so run, even if there's nowhere to run to.

as long as you're not running from, only for the joy of running.

i'll be beside you, i'll keep up.

maybe you'll take my hand

and as the sun beats down, 

we'll be free.